ARGH!!! FREAKING STRESS OUT!!! Final year project deadline coming!!!

1. Presentation Powerpoint --> Burn to a CD By 12/02/2007 !!
2. Project presentation --> 15mins of presentation On 13/02/2007 !!
3. Project report & Project --> Hand in everything by 26/02/2007

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Stress up... haiz... this is how my final year project look like now...



lolz... thanks to qiwen for everything... getting a "C" is already lucky for me :)

Ya... enjoy myself over at yesterday company D&D... Taken a lot of photos don't know whether to upload which one... This year is just as lucky as last year, last year won a 2D1N stay at Batam Turi Beach Resort For 2 Paxs. So How lucky am i this year... i WON the same prize as last year.. OMG... guess is 注定 that i'm going Batam~~

Today company D&D!!! Diden know that i have work for about 1 years already at 5 Star Tour... Time flew very fast.... March will be my final exams and going to graduate soon... Looking at my future.. is black & white de ba... Never mind... today go D&D 不醉不回家吧!! 最好可以忘记一切的 可能只是短暂的但也以近无所谓了 :)

Sore thoat.. headache.. dizzy.. not feeling well.. no appetite to eat.. Firstly wake up at 8am++ going work soon.. but don't have the mentally to wake up and was feeling not comfortable so continue to sleeping till about 12pm then manage to wake up... Slowly wash up then go work. Why sick still need to go work.. nowadays.. everything is $$, $$ and more $$. No money cannot do a lot of stuff.. Cannot buy the things u like etc... transport also need money... Go out also $$, buy things also money...

Chinese New Year coming... have to buy new clothes... everything is $$... guess not going to buy new clothes for myself... since even wear new clothes also don't think will suit me ba... everything will turn out to be ugly de lo.. Since chinese new year i will be working, so don't think i need to buy as working wear so nice give customer see?? Like a bo liao.. wasting excess money..

Getting more and more stress nowadays.. Project that going to be due soon but don't think got 50%, computer networking test coming soon but it's one of the worst subject that i don't understand a shit of it. Guess when reaching exam.. maybe try 闭关修炼才可能有机会刚刚及格吧. Haiz.. headache nothing much to blog already... work work work...

How i really hope that time will stop... or even reverse.. but guess.. everything will just goes by the wind... just my own wish thinking... -.-" not a good day.. sick + no mood = sadist me..

I have fun yesterday.. Yesterday unable to wake up to school due to late night sleeping.. At midnight was chatting with friend as he came to my house... i lended him my digital cam for him to go overseas... Hope he don't make spoiled lol!! After that going back home... wanted to sleep but still have to continue playing games with friends till 3am++ OMG... wanted to sleep but bo pian... all wanted to finish the game haiz...

In the end... cannot pull myself wake up for school... school started at 10am but i wake up as 11am.. haiz.. guess that the results of sleeping late.. have to get rid of the bad habit of sleeping late at night... During this month.. felt 憔悴的很多, maybe due to the suppers, gaming and chatting over the net ba.. ARGH... cannot take it soon. Go school also felt very sleepy haha..

Yesterday go katong sing k.. Very very cheap.. for 3 hours, the total is $18.. So divide by 5 person was about $3++. Haha first time i spend so cheap on ktv.. Sing a lot of sad songs too... althought it sound very 难听.. But never mind... go ktv is just to relax... relieve stress and forget those sad things... But will trigger it when got sing some sad songs? lolz.. After ktving.. go marine parade eat 炒馃条... $3 le.. but normal lo... but... after eating it.. go home felt abit sick already..

Wake up at 9am++ today... have been pulling myself up.. Felt abit of sick.. hot hot de... unable to find the thermometer but don't know left it at where.. Then forget it hurry change and go school.. At school felt very tired.. Wanted to concentrate but then my mind is in a blank.. After school... go have a light lunch over at cafe 1, then go find friend at gym go exercise... Gym quite long never go le... so tired after gym... The weight become very very heavy... Getting more and more fatter le... due to the supper supper supper... And more ugly le... lolz... 憔悴了!!!

Reach workplace at 4pm.. so tired don't have the mood to work at all... guess this month the salary will be very low after minus the CPF will be very low.. haiz.... poor for another month... hmm... Valentine day coming... 看来只可以躲在一个角落里哭吧... -.-"

No mood to blog during this few days... so stress with school, work and some personal stuff.. Hmm... going to be end of month le... chiong work more... hee... Wednesday Sadlist's club outing!! looking forward to it... Sunday is D&D !! heard from my supervisor that my branch is appointed "malaysia" think need to wear malay clothes.. OMG.. wear le cannot go out see people le -.-" haiz... no mood... zzzzzzz..............

Don't have enough sleep but manage to wake up go work at 10am... manage to wake up but got a free ride from my good friend go work... Cool to have a car.. but the problem is need money and the licence.. wondering which i got the time to go get my licence.. Guess still very long till i will have the time.

Hmm... today during work, manager ask me when i will graduate. Very soon... after my march exams think can graduate already. So he say that can carry on working at five star tour as a full-time. But i heard that full-time pay very low, somemore working as a counter staff. Do so many things and the pay is pathetic?

Omg.. after working for about 1 year ++, left quite tired of this job but still carry on work because of the money... Maybe will take a consideration about my studies and work... Now the problem is finding a full-time job that i will be interested in and taking up a part time course which i also will be interested in. I know will be hard... but guess i'm old enough to think of myself le... Old already... haiz...

Ya today very very tired, work all the way from 10am to 10pm.. During the afternoon feel like sleeping sia... omg.. head shaking... haiz... Guess getting sadder and sadder as the days goes by... Just like what my friend told me... "Time will heals everything". If time will heals everything then this world no sad people already.. haiz... cool...

Saturday manage to wake up go work~~ unable to sleep well but must go work because working till 7pm... go bugis eat steamboat.. some sort of celebrating friend birthday ba~~~ Working very boring.. time goes very slow and somemore no sales at all because of the location i'm sitting. But never mind.. work till 7pm then headed to bugis meet friend... There's a lot of people queing for the steamboat but never mind we wait... Wait till got sits at the back of the shop... but not very cramp so still quite ok... Very long don't have gathering with army friends le... excited~~

Haha having fun with my webcam~~~ come come some webcam ar~~~~ MSN VIDEO~~~ lolz.... play till so late still haven sleep... guess later going to have problem waking up go work le.. -.-"" go go go.. zzzzzz..........


Cool web cam~~ haha -.-" ugly me ~!~!

Now became very white ar~~~ argh.. don't like it le because becoming white has alot of problems de.. skin allegic.. will become very itchy and very red.. Finally got a chance to go swimming... have been stop swimming for about 1month? Ya... Today go tampines swimming complex and swim a few laps (althought i don't know how to swim? guess only playing with water also consider swimming ba..) After that go suntan!! But nowadays weather not that good but today still quite ok, still got a little bit of sun. But after a while the sun have been block.. become more and more cloudy then continue back to my swim.. after swimming.. wash up then suddenly got sun again.. omg.. God trying to be funny with me ar.. nvm... headed to pasta mania to eat because a friend working there... nice price he given me... $8 for everything... which is $4 per person.. lolz.. after that.. then rush to work at 6pm.. working till 10pm ba.. Work work... 4hours also $$ now.. nowadays $$ is everything.. no gf.. only got family to yang... still ok ba... :P

All these for JUST $8 !!!

Hot hot hot!!! -.-"

Act cute guy...

Lolz~!~!~! argh~~ finally got webcam at home le!!! Get it free from the Qmax !! lolz... Luckily my friend ask me to subscribe because can get a free webcam... Just now i was trying out at workplace and was pushing the camera to see customer haha.. very bo liao at work... low season damn zuo bo... actually morning & afternoon a lot of people come work.. but after 6pm.. alot of people left... so left a few of my colleague.. so little people...boring... haiz... just another day go by but... can say to be a good day.. =D

Guess my interests for my course now has been getting worse and worse. Last week have been pontan for 2 days because of sick and now... 5 days of school guess i'm late for at least 3 days like today? Mother keep on calling my handphone to wake me up BUT? The more noisy make me wanted to hack care it, so my mother tried till give up and go back to sleep. Class started at 10pm and i wake at 9.20pm. No more OMG as it's already "jia cang bian fan" to me le...

Late for class but... the worst thing is i don't understand anything that come out from my lecturer! Since like speaking in a different language? Haha.. guess the whole class was in a state of blurness. One classmate give me an idea of thinking of what to eat for lunch for stop me from sleeping in class.. Ya works well... eat what? chicken rice? noodles? western food!! argh~~ japanese food!! expensive!! but eating cannot save one de~~ After my lunch then hurry straight to work.. actually today don't wish to go work... but somehow help one of my colleague help take over her night shift as got something on? Actually still ok la.. because i go work can earn money but in the end she treat me eat chocolate.. (think want make me more fat ba.. -.-"). But since it's her xin yi so accept it lo... just that very shy...

Ya working was boring as now is low season, not much customer but i wish got more customer because the time will move faster and i can eat eat and eat more bookings! I need more sales!!! This week going to be a tough week for me as will work from Wednesday all the way to Sunday!! but somehow... it's worth it as... not much time already for me.. deadline coming soon... Although i cannot stop the time.. but i hope i can... (let this sentence stop for now... or else.. i will accidentally say out some of the secrets of myself... guess let myself know can le). Today not in a good mood because only one can brighten my day now.. :)

Oh great every Tuesday a boring day and a tired day.. project day + class till all the way to 5pm++. Being wake up by mother at 6.30am but continue my sleep all the way to 7++am.. Lolz... late for school again but never mind.. because that class teacher quite "shuan bian" de.. Reach school at 8am++. Saw some staff catching students that is not wearing lanyard, trying to make my way through without being caught and guess i make it :). Boring class class class... Till lunch time.. Was walking to cafe 1 for my lunch and saw the same old staff again catching people for lanyard... Then my group of friends just walk one round to cafe 1 just to avoid mafan.. Haha..

Nothing much another few boring hours of project day... hmm... even 3pm break also need to "duo duo chang chang" because was without lanyard lolz.. Here's qiwen and ben + the camera man ho ming doing bo liao stuff at class today..



Ben and Qiwen




As usual sleeping away during class..



The below papers are my computer system mini-project.. in need of help.. of anyone of you come across and know how to do plz contact me... thanks :)



Boring day... haiz... after today everyday work le.. haha maybe? =D

Today almost take half of my life during the early morning. Weather condition: HOT! Was having my PE lesson from 10am - 11am. First time PE get to exercise because everytime PE lesson was basically doing nothing. Let me count the days which i never exercise.. 1, 2, 3, 4.... Just lost counts should be weeks or maybe months? OMG.... getting more and more lazy these few days... Currently have already planned my schedule for this week which is Wednesday work all the way to Sunday. Really in need of money haha!

During PE lesson, first run 2 rounds around the stadium, carry on the pull up station which i manage to pull 8 and a half? OMG... can feel my hands shaking. After that will be the sit-up which is the station that have a 100% confirmation that i will fail it, but manage to get through it through the help of my friend =x (1, 2, 3, 10, 11, 13, 15, 20, 30, 42!!) Lolz.. Last station will be running 4 hours around the stadium with a timing but i just continue my run with a slow and constant speed but due to the hot weather condition, it because quite a tough run. Need to prepare for the NAFA test on the 5th of Feb but guess i'm not really prepared for it.. so prepare to fail... last year luckily manage to score Silver for it but it's not army standard at all, if go army do this kind of standard only prepare to get f*** -.-"

Haiz... Ever since earning money... been spending a lot on personal things, go overseas trips and now need to help pay bills for home and including my bills. Guess that the bad thing of earning $$, money don't come easily but can go away very fast... haiz... wonder how am i going to save... -.-" Another boring day in school has pass and later is project day.. haiz... stress stress... left a few months more but 1 day is like 1 week like that... haiz.. -.-

Hmm... now school start le but i still on the holiday mood... Since Thursday been working and working after school.. After school finish at 12pm++, have my lunch over at school then hurry go work from 2pm all the way to 10pm. Maybe currently now need to earn more and more money, going to graduate soon already so need to consider my future.. Whether to work what and to study what?? Hmm... there's some choice in my mind... but after my exams then i must consider seriously. Today felt too tired already so unable to wake up at 8am++ go work.. In the end go work at 1pm all the way to 1130pm tonight.. Hmm... now low season... at workplace zuo bo but manage to do some bookings~~ luck is on my side.. hope no cock up... =D

After Wednesday.. Whole body was aching all the way from Thursday to today Friday.. Body unable to function correctly at all, just sitting down also need to consider because there's pain everywhere.. Waking up from bed unable to bend myself up, need to crawl out of bed.. OMG.. felt like have run a 42km run again.. Lolz... but the last marathon.. the pain.. but got the pride of running it as the longest race that i ever run in my lifetime? Maybe next year joining?? Depend ba.. getting older and older as the days goes by..

But somehow manage to go for work on Thursday and Friday... After school till 1pm, then hurry rush down to work from 2pm - 10pm. Really very poor these few days... need a lot of money after my genting trip... Everything in this whole world need money $$, but as earn money is to spend.. since the money not going to go with you as you pass away.. But i wanted to earn some money for future use but kind of my hard earn money is like flowing water, come in but come out more? I don't have the habit of buying clothes etc... Think haven paid $200++ to my father because of the washing machine at home.. OMG... so fast already have to look after the house and pay for household bill le... SO OLD already... hate getting more and more older... more responsibility.

Now my mother is currently injured and i know i need to bear some responsibility in look after the house, but then somehow nowadays only ask me do this do this.. I still need to go school and work at the same time and go home have to bear all this... Although i know i should do this but then... i still felt very tired. Keep on seeing my brother playing maplestory all the way?? And i have to be called out half-way when i was doing my own things to wash dishes? haiz... maybe as the son, there's always something that i need to bear... I know i should not grumbler so much... Guess.. blogging the only way that i can express myself out.

Now the only mind concept i had in mind is.. try to earn more $$, buy something good for myself and maybe go for another holiday for me to relax myself away from this stress world. I kind of feel like the life i'm living now... Don't have life at all.. Maybe it's all fated ba.. and i have to carry on with my life... zzzz... Work work work... sleep sleep sleep.. school school school... that's my life.. -.-"

Ya now that does it... finally very sick.. Pontan never go school today. Yesterday night was hell for me.. 2am++ 3am++ and 5am++ rush out from bed chiong for toilet.. Shit like waterfall like that... liquid form... argh... er xin... but bo pian... i also don't want it to happen... After eating the noodles at school during afternoon yesterday, already felt uneasy but thought only slight heaty.. In the end at night dun have the appetite to eat... Then keep on going to toilet... guess have a slight food poisoning? OMG.. long then never sick already then suddenly give me a big big one.. cannot take it le...

I wanted to go school today one actually because Tuesday is a day that we do our 1 year project but in the end haiz... sick sick sick.. suay la... Hope can recover by tonight... hope so... sick.. body pain + heart also pain... sad sad sad..

Ya today the starting of my last term in school which means i'm going graduate soon!! Soon in April.. Guess planning another overseas trip? Maybe to redang with my friends~!~! Hope they all can make it! So after my studies, not sure what planning i have for myself... But confirm sure i will not study engineering!! Engineering is NOT my cup of tea! Maybe take up tourism?? Kind of stress.. But i sort of enjoy interacting with customers (Those nice customers only!), guess i wasted about 4 years studying engineering?? Not young already getting more and more old as the days goes by..

It's already about 3weeks over the Standard Chartered 42th Marathon, and i have not exercise even thought my both running legs has recover, now have already convert running legs to pig legs already. Been slacking... work work work.. eat eat eat.. keep on supper supper supper... Now then realized that my 4 country all united together become one fat country... Jialat liao la~~ actually today wanted to go running after school.. but then after the noodles eaten at 3pm++, i felt very uneasy. Stomach getting more and more uncomfortable. At home when mama brought back dinner, unable to eat.. Pain pain.. T/W from the toilet a few times throwing out atomic bomb~!!

Argh.. sick sick haiz.. hate the feelings of being sick but... no choice because not i choose one.. Maybe because of schools? Ya maybe because i no longer have the interest to study engineering.. Don't feel like studying.. Even at class also no mood to listen or do the job sheets. A computer in front of me.. Play computer games lo... hack care. My previous class advisor walk in and saw me playing, then say still play games ar.. wait fail.. but i hack care.. Really don't have the mood le.. Guess i'm going to fail my this term... Hope i can make it through peacefully...

Sianz.. at night i can only wait.. but wait for a no return... ya... guess that what happen if this the path i choose.. A path of no return.. :)

Today get off from work... why le?? because going out with friends go celebrate my friend birthday. Nowadays friends are very important to me... even i earn so much money also no use... Good friends are hard to find nowadays.. Specially when enter the work society, wondering whether i will still get to know more good friends or will my old friends contact me? hmm... Not sure, wait till the day come ba... Today go out with friends go play LAN game at katong. Haha.. quite long never go lan shop already but make an exemption as it's my friend birthday so don't want also must give some face? =x. Haha.. play till 1940pm++ then make our way back to tampines enjoy our dinner at tampines 200++. We go eat the steamboat over there, eat till very full full and stomach getting very bloated... but ok la.. one person about $20 because treat my friend eat as it's his birthday haha... Much cheaper then those restaurant outside.. Maybe next time also consider eating on my birthday?? =P




Haha we are happily taking photo of the can of coke WHICH we thought they said is the largest coke in genting~~ lolz.. and to our regrets.. it's not -.-"


LOLZ!! the coke is over there!!! lolz... make a fool of ourself =x. Next time read the sign and the arrow first... before doing something.. =x

Due to just come back from genting, guess body not use to it. Sleep all the way to afternoon 3pm++ argh.. wanted to go work actually but quite lazy. So at home slack doing nothing.. watching back my gundam seed destiny! very jin zhan even if i saw before already. Watch all the way till about 13 esp like that, play some games with my friends.. Then continue watching the show all the way to 2am.. argh... lucky manage to wake up to work.. reach at 10am.. sianz.. tomorrow off! celebrate friend birthday!!

Just back not long ago from genting.. Such a long journey back from genting.. Sit till sianz... but luckily i take executive class coach.. if i take the 25 seater T/W genting, guess i will die of it.. 7 - 8 hours of ride is already cannot take it, cannot imagine that if going to other places. OMG... cry cry cry.. somemore not all places have executive coach going.. argh... -.-" Too tired after coming back so still don't know what to blog.. maybe tomorrow then continue... -.-"

Here's the executive class coach.. shiok.. =x


Hmm... at malaysia custom... a lot of my company coaches parking~~ -.-" so many.. guess my company doing good.. when going to increase my pay?? But increase also no use.. guess not going to work long... maybe till this year april after my studies?? Most likely.. no prospect at all.. -.-


signing off... go zzz... haiz...